I had my 30 day of sobriety anniversary four days ago. I can't say it's been easy but hasn't been overly difficult. I was never one to HAVE to drink every day, or even every week. My biggest problem is once I start, I dont' stop. It's easy for me to down a whole bottle of wine in an evening. No problem. The problem was that since I was in high school I've experienced black outs. Almost every time I drink. The other problem is that if "things" get rough, my instinct is to grab a bottle of wine to help dull the feelings. Whether it's depression, well, what can I say. It's always depression.
So, there I was today, at QT. QT is a very nice convenience chain here in Arizona. Also known as Quik Trip. I often stop to get an iced tea. A 52 ounce iced tea. With four packs of Stevia, which I carry around in my car. So I fill my cup half way up and the machine runs out. There are several other choices but the only other one without sugar is "mango" tea. I thought, "how bad can it be?", especially since my cup's already half full. So I filled it the rest of the way with unsweetened mango tea. I get in my car and dump in my four packets of Stevia. I take a drink, and almost spit it out. Who knew that mango tea tasted so much like BOOZE???!!!! OH MY LORD, I thought I was drinking my absolute favorite hard alcohol, Brandy!
I don't really know how to take this. Hate it because it reminds me of drinking, or love it because it reminds me of drinking. I loved Brandy. E&J Brandy. On ice. Or with a splash of water. Or Mango iced tea from QT. Hmmmmm.